In Your unfailing love You will lead the people You have redeemed. In Your strength You will guide them to Your holy dwelling. Exodus 15:13



Friday, October 19, 2007

Perservere

I am just going to blog throw up this at you just to get it off my chest. School is not going well for me this year. I thought we started off well but in the last two weeks I feel like my whole job has just turned against me. Every move I make is scrutinized by someone. Nothing is ever good enough! I come home crying and frustrated DAILY! I leave for work at the last possible moment crying just so I don't have to be there any longer than I have to. It's not even the fact that I have to work. I love teaching! I love that I get to impact a child with more than just education. I get to love them all day long. I just want a little bit of encouragement. Someone to say,"Good Job!" or "I like how you taught that lesson on snails!". I am just so frustrated! Jared has done a great job of trying to encourage me...I am just being so stubborn about it all! I am questioning if I missed the Lord's call to stay at this school when last year I didn't know. I was so sure that this is where he wants me but now I just don't know! Did I hear him wrong??? I need some mighty prayers warriors to raise up and help me fight against failure. It is making my every thought about everything negative. I need LIFE, JOY and HOPE for this situation. I know I can't do it on my own so I am asking you to share my burden and lift us up if you get a chance.

4 comments:

C:M:W said...

Sweet Friend... you are in my prayers!

Amanda said...

Now I know some things to pray for. I'll be talking to the Lord about you! I love you, dear one.

Unknown said...

Oh love,
How I know the feeling! But know that I am praying for you and your sweet family.

Jill Marie said...

I know how you feel. After teaching first grade for 4 years and then being a stay-at-home-mom this year, I understand how encouragment is high on the priority list. Just remember, every time one of your little kinderbabies runs through the door to give you a hug, THAT is your "thank you". Their smiles are your "good job"! You are impacting their life like no one else can. Just keep loving them. You are a fabulous wife, mom and teacher...I have no doubt.